October & November Came & Went...

Realizing that I have yet to post since 0ct.15th I decided to grace you with my presence yet again. You missed me right? So a lot has happened since the last time I posted. I am trying to figure out how to talk about it. Maybe just in bullets.

• Rilyn turned 3! Yay for him. He is such a little monster and I love him so much. He is growing up so fast. He wants to be independent already and that saddens me. I know that he needs to learn to do things for himself but I dont think I am ready for it. His birthday was great. He had so much fun. He also surprised the heck out of us in his reaction to his presents. He got so excited that he physically shook. He would open a present and then shake and laugh hysterically. It was the funniest thing I think I have ever seen.
• I found out that my brother and SIL are probably,maybe, I dont know getting a divorce. That is just devastating to me. I feel like I am losing one of the best things to ever happen to our family. I dont know why I feel so sad but I do. Maybe because my dad wasnt a part of my life and I looked to my brother and his family on how and what I would want in mine. I almost feel like I have been watching and immulating a show that has the most horrible ending. I dont know what to do. I know that we will still be a family but it hurts something awful to know that it will never be the same.
• J and I have still been struggling with money. I ended up getting a second job at a retail store for extra money. It helps a TON. I obviously would rather not work two jobs, but the circumstances and bills dont allow for that. I really dont mind working I guess. I like the people that I work with. The store manager is a good friend and I can laugh and talk to her on a almost daily basis now which is nice. I work like 60+ hours a week which leaves no time for watching t.v or hanging out with Ri and J. Thats the part that sucks the most. I miss little things...tucking Ri into bed, laying on the couch and watching "our" shows with J. It sucks but at least we can pay daycare. My kid comes first before my shows.